Sunday, March 31, 2013

Permission

There are times when I misunderstand or take too literally the things said to me. I have been limiting myself on this blog. I didn't want to write about too much or about too many topics for fear it would work against me in the future. However, I think it could be working against me now.

Yes, I am writing a novel and writing about it is enjoyable. But I also have lots of other thoughts and silly stories to share. So I am giving myself permission to write them. To stop worrying about what might happen in the future with my work and just write. Write now and see how it all unfolds. Now is not the time to hold back but the time to let go and write anything and everything. How else will I grow up as a writer?

I also know that I need to take the same approach to reading. I need to read more of all kinds of things and if I don't like it give myself permission to put it down. Growing up my parents always told me to "finish what I started" and wow have I taken that to heart. In many areas that is what I need to do but not when it comes to books. From now on if I would rather gouge my eyes out than read another page of a book then I will stop. I will try another story.

I will learn from each one whether I finish it or not. Just like writing, now is the time to read  without the pressure that somehow I am a terrible person for not finished a book. I realize how silly that is but it has been part of my process until now. And the truth is there are books not worth finishing out there. My main goal is not to write one of them.

Hurry Up!

Over the last few weeks I have be super busy with other things and other adventures, so draft 2 has been waiting for me. But tomorrow April begins and it is my goal to recreate November's writing production. It is my goal to finish draft two by the end of the month.

It may be had to do with my schedule filling by the minute and extra responsibilities at work but I plan on doing it anyway. I am beginning to see the wisdom in getting stories finished in shorter periods of time. Well, at least complete drafts. Once more time passes it seems to become harder to keep going, harder to keep characters and plots together, just harder.

I think part of this is because I am not a static character nor are those I am writing. Time gives opportunity for reflection, learning and growing which are great things but not if they kill stories. Time changes me and my writing. So finishing drafts together will make them easier to work with later because they won't have been impacted by too much time. Congruent stories come from congruent writing. I guess I know its time to hurry up and get this draft done before my character(s) eat up too much of the clock.

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Hard Words

Its getting serious around here. My second draft is coming together and the plot is thickening. Thickening enough that I am struggling to make sense of it. I know my characters and where they want to go but getting them there is more challenging than I thought. Its like wading through waist high mud.

At times like this words become harder to find. Its really fun when the words come easily but the temptation to quit appears almost immediately following a word count slump. Then the inner editor begins to find ways to rear its ugly head. I'm guess this is where many people do quit and rightfully so. I never thought telling a "simple" story would be this difficult. But I am not going to give up.

I refuse to let this get the better of me because as much as I can't imagine how I will get there, I also can't imagine not getting there. I must remember this is a process and piece by piece, word by word this story will be finished.

We'll deal with whether its any good later. For now finishing draft 2 is the goal, hard words or not.